Moving outside the tangle of fear-thinking

Moving outside the tangle of fear-thinking

“Emotions such as anger, depression, fear and hatred are like arrows that point to patterns and belief systems that can be transformed.”

Nanditha

Our deepest fear

When I started to turn my attention inward and began to study my thoughts, patterns and belief systems I realised that I am afraid of my own light and power. And I discovered the uncountable tools and mechanisms that I have – unconsciously – established in order to make sure that I keep myself small. Marianne Williamson puts in her poem “our deepest fear” so beautifully into words what I discovered.

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A new Beginning

A new Beginning

Now is now. A fresh moment full of potential to become what my heart and soul are longing for.

Nanditha

How my depressive episodes influence my relationship

Yesterday I had to realise how deeply my depressive episodes influence my relationship. My boyfriend told me how it feels to be around me when I am in a depressive episode and it broke my heart. He sees me disappearing into the dark cloud and what stays behind is a version of me where no life force resides. This version is cold, distant, quickly angry and dominant.

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